I think I'm finally settling in to this new life.
I think it took me until school got back in session to finally feel like my "new normal" was now beginning...and so here we are.
I posted a few months back about what my ideal day would look like now that I'm a full time artist - (you can see that post here) - and I'm not quite there yet, but I'm getting closer.
One battle I have is the desire to not have a schedule vs. the need to have a schedule.
What did I despise about teaching the most? The 6 am alarm going off. The bell ringing. The confinement of time. It was a cycle - get up. Go here. Do this. Come home. Be really tired but try to accomplish stuff and if I don't, feel guilty. Go to sleep. Repeat.
So now my alarm doesn't go off as often. And then what happens? I get annoyed if I sleep too late. I get frustrated if my "work day" doesn't start until 11. I beat myself up for taking a mid-day lunch break and end up watching a recorded Dateline.
So, I'm finding a balance. And I think it's starting to work!
Monday - Wednesday - Friday I set my alarm and I get up and go for a run first thing. I eat my breakfast, spend some time with the Lord, and then sip my coffee while looking over emails. Then it's shower time and by 10 I'm ready to "go to work". (Today I said goodbye to Brent and told him I was 'off to work' and walked down the hall...he told me to "drive safe".)
Then I get down to business. Each day, I've got a checklist of a few projects. And I don't stop until they are done. And sometimes I don't stop even when they are done.
I'm finding that I like to work later in the day and at night, and that that's ok. It's ok to not start working until later, as long as I'm getting a full day of work in.
And as long as I'm letting myself rest. That's the problem lately...Brent says I'm becoming a 'workaholic' which is funny to hear since I rarely leave the house.
But it's all about balance, and I'll get it figured out...
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